
When the rain pours down as it is doing just now, it’s easy to see the world as a dull, unfavourable place. If it lasts for more than a few days, life itself becomes dreary, muted.
I grew up in Vancouver. Those long winter stretches of grey skies and constant rain were not fun, admittedly. The shooshing of traffic over slick roads, the mucky lawns, and torrents of water, pouring through the gutters, dripping off trees. You’d feel cold and wet, just looking out the window. It made you feel like burrowing under blankets, sipping heavy soups, a glass of dry red wine to warm you up.
But we’d make it through, and when the sun appeared, we’d celebrate the new lightness of being with a bounce in the step, a quicker laugh, a leisurely stroll in the park.
The other side of lightness and warmth

The darkness and rain are just the other side of lightness and warmth. I love the languor and warmth of a sunny summer’s day, but I’ll also take the inner warmth sitting by an evening fire while the winds wail and rain pounds on the roof.
Not long after we moved to Pender, I met a fellow who’d recently moved here from rural Ontario. He and his family had spent one enchanted summer on Pender. It was so special, he thought, he needed to live here.
By January of his first year, he decided he’d made a big mistake. The rain, the grey, the penetrating dampness, the unrelenting darkness from the trees around his house. He was going crazy, he said, he wanted the sun.
The freezing temperatures of an eastern Canadian winter were bearable, as long as there were clear, open skies and the movement of the sun through the day.
“We’re leaving Friday,” he told me, and I happened to see him that day filling up his van at the Driftwood gas bar. His wife and child looked miserable waiting inside the vehicle, facing the long journey back home. He hoped to follow the sun across the country to the brighter promise of Sudbury, Ontario.
Leaving bad weather behind
I could feel his pain. The idea of leaving bad weather behind is attractive. Jennifer and I used to love a hit of mid-winter sun and heat, and we’d flee to the beaches of the Mayan Riviera or Cabo San Lucas on the west coast of Mexico. But it hadn’t solved much when we returned to the same dreariness at home.
I’ve never been able to leave something I don’t like at the back door. I can try to will dark feelings out of existence, but they never go away. When Jen and I came home from Mexico, the rain puddles were just as deep, the dampness just as pervasive as it was when we left. Just as depressing, if that’s the way you see it.
Far better to see this kind of weather as something that just is. The flip side of sunny weather. It may be darker, but it’s just as profound, just as life-enhancing.
You don’t have to find joy in the rain to accept it. You don’t have to find meaning in the grey drabness of these “miserable days.” You just have to find them.
The muck around the woodpile, the clogged eaves, the slippery deck, the rain splashing on hot bread loaves being carried from Mildrith back to the kitchen. The cold in the house in the morning, the wind-storms and power outages, the slivers in the hand from chopping firewood. The darkness at four in the afternoon.
It seems a struggle, compared to the stillness of a summer evening, with that last glass of wine and the sun just below the horizon, and it’s almost bedtime.
Praise the rain
Winter is here:
“Praise the rain; it brings more rain.
Praise the rain; it brings more rain.”
Joy Harjo, “Praise the Rain” 1
Praising it all — the winter muck and the summer wine — brings everything together into a totality, a one-ness. The light and dark, the mud and grass, the sunlight and rain, contentment and restlessness: they’re all the same. We don’t have to choose one over the other, we don’t have to behave a certain way. They just are.
“Doesn’t that sound lovely?” he said, tongue in cheek, hearing a note of banality in the statement?
And yet, you can’t separate the “hissing of summer lawns” from the bitter south-easterlies of December. You can’t appreciate the garden’s scented air in late Spring without the dank smell of muck in early December.
It’s no different in your own life, really — the mystery of existence, the black and white, the good and bad.
The warring aspects of our world
All of these mysteries, even the menacing note of a fallen fir tree across the electrical wires, a power outage, can make you pay attention to the warring aspects of our life on this island.
They are part of our natural world, our lives, and utterly uncontainable.
First attempt at Nina’s Pain Sauvage, wild bread. Borne of simplicity: coarsely milled grain (I used spelt), freshly milled red fife flour, water and salt. No yeast, wild or commercial. A few flax seeds sprinkled on top, baked in bread tins. Tastes of grain and earth. This is Nina Raginsky’s bread. She lives on Salt Spring Island BC in an old house that she calls her Maison Sauvage, and she tends her garden, her Jardin Sauvage. She prefers living with a small footprint; loves the aimless life, but is an Officer of the Order of Canada for her photography. Read the latest Happy Monk blog post for more about Nina. Thanks to Sophie Williams @ravenbreads for sharing about her conversations with Nina back in January — a meeting of like minds and hearts, I think. Today is Nina’s 80th birthday! Happy birthday, Nina!
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Happy Monk Tidings - April 14, 2021 🍞 - Baker's Choice: Spelt + Honey Loaf; Plus the mighty Seed Feast; Happy Monk Blog: Nina's Pain Sauvage - [ See link in profile ]
Nice bake yesterday! The Salish Sourdough turned out great. So did the Fig and Fennel Loaf, but wish I’d added more fennel!
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Happy Monk Tidings - April 7, 2021 🍞 - Baker's Choice: Fig and Fennel Loaf or Your Old Stand by: the Salish Sourdough; Happy Monk Blog: Is the Baguette on the Verge of Renaissance? - [ See link in profile ]
Happy Monk Tidings - March 24, 2021 🍞 - Blog: The Milk Maid, Love and Bread Pudding; Bread this week: Salish Sourdough and Seed Feast - [ See link in profile ]
Hot Cross Buns are out the door and we have a few extras. The deep spice, fruit and texture of these buns evoke faded memories for me. Maybe Aunty Betty made them? Maybe they’re the stuff of dreams?
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Happy Monk Tidings - March 17, 2021 🍞 - Happy Monk Blog: One a Penny, Two a Penny! | Baker's Choice: Hot Cross Buns [ See link in Profile ]
Happy Monk Tidings - March 10, 2021 🍞 - Bread this week: Your favourites: Salish Sourdough and Seed Feast; Happy Monk Blog: The Ocean Within Us [ See link in profile ]
Was windy down here this morning, but nothing like a winter storm! And look what what Mildrith made this morning just as the wind was kicking up! Polenta and Rosemary Loaf made with rosemary that grows wild on our property.
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Happy Monk Tidings - March 5, 2021 🍞 - Happy Monk Blog: Building Fences, Mending Walls; and Baker's Choice: Polenta and Rosemary Sourdough [ See link in profile ]
The mighty Seed Feast, Pender Island style, Happy Monk style. @chez_sjaan
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The Seed Feast is pretty when it drops out of the banneton. Today I used a UFO bread lame #wiredmonkey to make it prettier. Nice control and it slices through those big pumpkin seeds!
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Happy Monk Tidings - February 24, 2021 🍞 - Happy Monk Blog: The Honest Baker; Bread choices this week: Salish Sourdough or Seed Feast - [ See link in profile ]
Happy Monk Tidings - February 17, 2021 🍞 - Baker's Choice Week: Mountain Rye; Blog: A Hard-Earned Homecoming - [See link in Profile]
Saturday, Feb. 13. 2:45 am. Air temperature: -3°C (26.6°F). Mildrith, the wood fired oven, had an internal temp of 977°F (525°C). Balmy! Too hot to to bake bread, but she cooled quickly enough with the open doors, then baked 68 loaves! The problem was getting the orders out to customers, as the roads were unploughed with 8” of snow. Our all-wheel Subaru saved the day and customers got their bread! I tell ya!
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Half loaf of Happy Monk Salish Sourdough with @clarewilkening Herringware, beautiful “stacking tableware” by Clare Wilkening, whose ceramics are about “marine and terrestrial ecosystems” and homage to the Musqueam, Squamish, Tsleil-Waututh and Salish People. The bowl was a brilliant Christmas gift from daughter Ella, a long-time friend of Clare’s.
Check out the Happy Monk being interviewed on (@madbaker)Mark Dyck’s Rise Up Podcast ... wherever you get your podcasts! Scintillating conversation for baking nerds and wood-fired oven enthusiasts!
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Happy Monk Tidings - Dec. 16, 2020 - Happy Monk Blog: Time to Hang Up the Baker's Peel for 2020; Baker's Choice: Fruit Sourdough [ See link in profile ]
Instead of “figgy pudding,” I made some Figgy Bread! Fig and a hint of Fennel. Doesn’t roll off the tongue as well as figgy pudding, but it tastes better! (Thus the red carpet threatment!)
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Salish Country Loaves tumbling out of Mildrith, the wood-fired oven this morning. There are a few extras, so if you’re interested, I’ll be at Medicine Beach until 2pm today (Friday, Dec. 11)!
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Happy Monk Tidings - Dec. 11, 2020 - Baker's Choice this week: Fig and Fennel Loaf; Happy Monk Blog: Praise the Rain! [ See link in profile ]
Volkornbrot casts a long shadow … getting bagged up for deliveries today. The aroma of 100% rye in the kitchen is otherworldly! I’m walking around in a trance.
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Praise the Rain by Joy Harjo is from her poetry collection, Conflict Resolution for Holy Beings, published by W.W. Norton. Listen to a reading and commentary of the poem on the podcast “Poetry Unbound.” ↩
Utterly beautiful writing. Thank you for reframing the rain and darkness. Just the reminder I needed as we nudge ever closer to solstice.
Thanks, Michelle. Reframing the rain and darkness is easier said than done. I just figure working on my outlook is better than falling into the pits of despair.
I like to think of rain as refreshing the earth and our souls. And yes, I agree the cold and dampness makes me climb into warm cozy clothing that I some times miss in the summer..
Yes, as I said the winter is just the flip side of summer!