
When the rain pours down as it is doing just now, it’s easy to see the world as a dull, unfavourable place. If it lasts for more than a few days, life itself becomes dreary, muted.
I grew up in Vancouver. Those long winter stretches of grey skies and constant rain were not fun, admittedly. The shooshing of traffic over slick roads, the mucky lawns, and torrents of water, pouring through the gutters, dripping off trees. You’d feel cold and wet, just looking out the window. It made you feel like burrowing under blankets, sipping heavy soups, a glass of dry red wine to warm you up.
But we’d make it through, and when the sun appeared, we’d celebrate the new lightness of being with a bounce in the step, a quicker laugh, a leisurely stroll in the park.
The other side of lightness and warmth

The darkness and rain are just the other side of lightness and warmth. I love the languor and warmth of a sunny summer’s day, but I’ll also take the inner warmth sitting by an evening fire while the winds wail and rain pounds on the roof.
Not long after we moved to Pender, I met a fellow who’d recently moved here from rural Ontario. He and his family had spent one enchanted summer on Pender. It was so special, he thought, he needed to live here.
By January of his first year, he decided he’d made a big mistake. The rain, the grey, the penetrating dampness, the unrelenting darkness from the trees around his house. He was going crazy, he said, he wanted the sun.
The freezing temperatures of an eastern Canadian winter were bearable, as long as there were clear, open skies and the movement of the sun through the day.
“We’re leaving Friday,” he told me, and I happened to see him that day filling up his van at the Driftwood gas bar. His wife and child looked miserable waiting inside the vehicle, facing the long journey back home. He hoped to follow the sun across the country to the brighter promise of Sudbury, Ontario.
Leaving bad weather behind
I could feel his pain. The idea of leaving bad weather behind is attractive. Jennifer and I used to love a hit of mid-winter sun and heat, and we’d flee to the beaches of the Mayan Riviera or Cabo San Lucas on the west coast of Mexico. But it hadn’t solved much when we returned to the same dreariness at home.
I’ve never been able to leave something I don’t like at the back door. I can try to will dark feelings out of existence, but they never go away. When Jen and I came home from Mexico, the rain puddles were just as deep, the dampness just as pervasive as it was when we left. Just as depressing, if that’s the way you see it.
Far better to see this kind of weather as something that just is. The flip side of sunny weather. It may be darker, but it’s just as profound, just as life-enhancing.
You don’t have to find joy in the rain to accept it. You don’t have to find meaning in the grey drabness of these “miserable days.” You just have to find them.
The muck around the woodpile, the clogged eaves, the slippery deck, the rain splashing on hot bread loaves being carried from Mildrith back to the kitchen. The cold in the house in the morning, the wind-storms and power outages, the slivers in the hand from chopping firewood. The darkness at four in the afternoon.
It seems a struggle, compared to the stillness of a summer evening, with that last glass of wine and the sun just below the horizon, and it’s almost bedtime.
Praise the rain
Winter is here:
“Praise the rain; it brings more rain.
Praise the rain; it brings more rain.”
Joy Harjo, “Praise the Rain” 1
Praising it all — the winter muck and the summer wine — brings everything together into a totality, a one-ness. The light and dark, the mud and grass, the sunlight and rain, contentment and restlessness: they’re all the same. We don’t have to choose one over the other, we don’t have to behave a certain way. They just are.
“Doesn’t that sound lovely?” he said, tongue in cheek, hearing a note of banality in the statement?
And yet, you can’t separate the “hissing of summer lawns” from the bitter south-easterlies of December. You can’t appreciate the garden’s scented air in late Spring without the dank smell of muck in early December.
It’s no different in your own life, really — the mystery of existence, the black and white, the good and bad.
The warring aspects of our world
All of these mysteries, even the menacing note of a fallen fir tree across the electrical wires, a power outage, can make you pay attention to the warring aspects of our life on this island.
They are part of our natural world, our lives, and utterly uncontainable.
A new outlook for the Happy Monk Baking Company, a shift of focus from oven-to-home bread delivery to the community of the Pender Island Farmers Market [ See Link in Profile ]
Jan 29
A bread-fail last week produced great-tasting Sesame-Miso Frisbees or Umami Chapeaus! What to do with the remnants? Hard-bread, rusks, croutons, or what have you. And the Ravens get their fair share, too … O come to me Huginn and Munnin! Fill your beaks and carry my greetings and blessings to Odin! [ See link in my LinkTree in HappyMonk Profile ]
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Jul 21
Latest Happy Monk Blog: The World is Too Much With Us - In our little Island paradise, how to embrace all the beauty when the world is going to hell in a hand basket? ALSO: Baker`s Choice - Brown-Rice Miso and Sesame Sourdough [ See LinkTree in Profile ]
Jul 17
Latest Happy Monk Blog: "A Bird Came Down the Walk," a brief flirtation with ChatGPT that was awkward but offered an exquisite poem by Emily Dickinson. [See LinkTree in Profile ]
Jul 3
Resurrected a couple of Salish Sourdough loaves forgotten inside Mildrith, the wood-fired oven. They emerged charred and hell-fired, sadly, so I took a knife to them and made them almost new again!
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Jun 9
Strongly recommend installing the Smell-O-Vision™ feature on your device to appreciate the aroma of these Rye-Currant Sourdough loaves, just out of the oven. Wish I could capture it in a jar, or make a scratch ‘n’ sniff postage stamp (like the recent French stamp commemorating the baguette). And this loaf tastes just as lovely as they look!
Jun 1
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Happy Monk Tidings - May 15, 2024 🍞 - BLOG REDUX: "Saving Grace"; BAKER`S CHOICE: Sprouted Purple Barley Sourdough; REGULAR: Seed Feast.
May 15
It’s late at night and chances are there’s a baker near you having fun with bread dough …
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May 5
All spelt, all the time … well, with a few glugs of maple syrup
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Apr 20
New Happy Monk Blog: Spring brings mixed blessings! A sense of loss, along with warmth and a new cast of light, "That Science cannot overtake / But Human Nature Feels." Westeros and Emily Dickinson`s sensitive heart. [ See LinkTree in Profile ]
Apr 3
This little guy is a workhorse, plain and simple. A brute! Thursday, it milled over 27kg of incredible flour for a recipe that needed the freshest flour possible. And its output was beautiful. Wheat, spelt, rye and buckwheat. A larger mill could have handled that in a fraction of the time, but who’s complaining? Some amazing bread was the result, milled and mixed the same day. A Country Miche from an article by Eric Pallant @epallant in the Winter/Spring 2023 issue of Bread Lines.
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Mar 2
Latest Happy Monk Blog - The Living Rock Island – Our Little Corner of South Pender Island 🍞 [See LinkTree in Profile]
Feb 28
O, for a slice of raisin sourdough! that hath been
Warm’d a long age in the deep delvéd oven,
Tasting of Hestia and the ocean green,
Rest and a slow moving song and sunburnt mirth!
O for a loaf full of the warm South
Full of the true, the blushful Hippocrene,
With beaded raisins winking at the crumb,
And cinnamon-stainéd mouth;
That I might eat, and leave the world unseen,
And with thee fade away into the forest dim.
— Apologies to John Keats for my butchery of his “Ode to a Nightingale”
Feb 25
At the outset of the Happy Monk Baking Company, I cherished those early mornings, working alone with Mildrith in the dark before the birds began their glorious morning chorus. The world was silent, unhurried. Mildrith and me, the trees, the solid earth, a passing deer, the baskets of bread dough waiting for the oven.
Going to work in the pre-dawn hours was something bakers did, I thought. They sacrificed sleep and delivered their bread early to appreciative customers. It was a romantic notion on my part, a naïve commitment to the baking trade without fully understanding the consequences, i.e. sleep debt.
It was satisfying to have loaves ready for some customers before noon; it was a triumph! But by the time most of the bread was ready for delivery, bagged and labelled, my eyelids were growing heavy, my mind fuzzy, my body slowing down.
And it wasn’t safe driving up-island.
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Feb 1
Milling a little corn to mix in with some marinated olives before they go into a tapenade infused dough. Big olive flavour … plus a rare shot of Mildrith, the wood-fired oven!
Nov 19
Happy Monk Tidings - November 15, 2023 BAKER`S CHOICE this week: Olive Sourdough Loaf; AND: An Emotional Weather Report [ See LinkTree in Profile ] 🍞
Nov 15
Happy Monk Tidings - November 1, 2023 🍞 - BAKER`S CHOICE: Sourdough Sandwich Loaf; BLOG: Don`t Let That Wonder Lawyer Tell You It`s Not Real Bread! [ See LinkTree in Profile ]
Nov 1
Dylan Thomas, one of my muses, would have been 109 years old this Friday, Oct. 27. One of a small-handful of poets whose words are cherished and summoned often for their music and wisdom. They soothe, they sing, they evoke. I`ll be thinking of him this bread day, under "the mustardseed sun"….. and the "switchback sea"…. as he "celebrates and spurns his driftwood thirty fifth wind turned age."
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Happy Monk Tidings - October 25, 2023 🍞 - BAKER`S CHOICE - Sprouted Emmer Sourdough; BLOG: Happy Birthday, Dylan Thomas! [See LinkTree in Profile ]
Oct 25
Happy Monk Tidings - October 18, 2023 - 🍞: BAKER`s CHOICE: Seedy Spelt and Rye Bread; BLOG: It Starts With Wonder? What`s That?
Oct 18
Happy Monk Tidings - October 11, 2023 BAKER`S CHOICE: Potato Rosemary Bread; BLOG: Swimming with Otters 🍞
Oct 11
Happy Monk Tidings - BLOG: Abundance: Season of Apples; Baker`s Choice: Pender Island Apple Bread with Pender Apples and Twin Island Cider - October 4, 2023 🍞 [ See LinkTree in Profile ]
Oct 4
Happy Monk Tidings - September 27, 2023 🍞 - BAKER`S CHOICE THIS WEEK: Harvest Bread; BLOG: Positively Fourth Avenue - [ See LinkTree in Profile ]
Sep 27
Happy Monk Tidings - September 20, 2023 🍞 - BAKER`S CHOICE: Garlic Levain Bread; BLOG: Harumph! Author Says Leave the Baking to the Professionals! [ See LinkTree in Profile ]
Sep 20
A hefty Country Miche, formula from Breadlines published by Bread Bakers Guild of America. Hefty in size, hefty in flavour. Four flours (Sifted Metchosin Wheat, Rye, Buckwheat, Spelt), a super-active levain and an intense crust colour. I think I’m addicted! It’s kind of finicky, though, and trying to work out a reasonable schedule to produce 40 loaves for Happy Monk customers.
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Sep 14
Praise the Rain by Joy Harjo is from her poetry collection, Conflict Resolution for Holy Beings, published by W.W. Norton. Listen to a reading and commentary of the poem on the podcast “Poetry Unbound.” ↩
Utterly beautiful writing. Thank you for reframing the rain and darkness. Just the reminder I needed as we nudge ever closer to solstice.
Thanks, Michelle. Reframing the rain and darkness is easier said than done. I just figure working on my outlook is better than falling into the pits of despair.
I like to think of rain as refreshing the earth and our souls. And yes, I agree the cold and dampness makes me climb into warm cozy clothing that I some times miss in the summer..
Yes, as I said the winter is just the flip side of summer!
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