
Standing in front of Mildrith in the early hours has given me a few spine-tingling moments. The night is at its darkest. I’m alone; I’m the only one awake in the world, well, at least the only one on my small road on South Pender Island.
Any noise I hear is magnified, exaggerated by the darkness, and made more dramatic, haunting. The crack of a twig, the rustle of wind if I’m not expecting it, can make me jump.
I’ve alluded to a few moments in this blog, such as when I looked up from the wood-fired oven and saw a deer, a male buck, treading carefully over the branches and twigs behind the shelter. I usually shoo deer away. This time I was silent, still, and just watched.
Disappeared into the darkness
The deer stopped not four feet away, turned its head and looked back at me. It blinked, hesitated as if trying to make sense of what it saw. Then quietly resumed walking and disappeared into the darkness.
I was wearing a headlamp, so it might not have known I was a human animal. I could see the lamp’s reflection in its eye. A leaf hung from its mouth.
But the deer’s look went right through me; it made me shiver! I felt a strange connection with the animal, as though words had passed between us, but I couldn’t make out their meaning. It’s a moment I’ll not soon forget.
Something similar happened Last Friday morning. I was in front of Mildrith again, loading olive bread dough into the oven. I had my AirPods on and was listening to music. It was vintage Bob Dylan. Mid-1960s, “Visions of Johana,” “Desolation Row,” “It’s All Over Now Baby Blue,” and so on. 1
My hands were going through the motions: dump dough out of basket onto baker’s peel, brush loose flour off dough, score dough with razor blade, open oven door, insert peel into oven, slide dough off peel onto hearth bricks, remove peel, shut oven door. Repeat. I perform this series of motions 70 to 80 times each bake day.
Sings out in the night
I don’t have to think. The darkness and silence are all around me, and Bob Dylan’s voice sings:
Ain’t it just like the night to play tricks when you’re trying to be so quiet?
from “Visions of Johanna” by Bob Dylan
We sit here stranded, though we’re all doing our best to deny it
And Louise holds a handful of rain, tempting you to defy it
Lights flicker from the opposite loft
In this room, the heat pipes just cough
The country music station plays soft
But there’s nothing, really nothing, to turn off
Just Louise and her lover so entwined
And these visions of Johanna that conquer my mind.
The recording is from the acoustic half of a performance at The Royal Albert Hall, London, 1966. He’s a kid, 25 years old, alone on stage in front of 5,000 people. He’s playing an out-of-tune acoustic guitar, and a harmonica from a rack hung around his neck.
In the empty lot where the ladies play blindman’s bluff with the key chain
And the all-night girls they whisper of escapades out on the “D” train
We can hear the night watchman click his flashlight
Ask himself if it’s him or them that’s insane
Louise, she’s all right, she’s just near
She’s delicate and seems like the mirror
But she just makes it all too concise and too clear
That Johanna’s not here
The ghost of electricity howls in the bones of her face
Where these visions of Johanna have now taken my place
The auditorium is so silent you could hear a pin drop. The audience is rapt. Dylan, I think, enjoys this and allows his voice to fill the room, playing with the sound of the words, letting the silence speak between the lines.
He even sounds a little drunk as he piles images upon images and blows them out over the seats. Like a drunk in a midnight choir!
Transfixed
But that’s another dimension from 56 years ago.
Right now, it’s 4:30 a.m., and I’m transfixed by the performance, intoxicated myself, and trying to imagine what it must have been like to have been at that concert. I can see my hands moving over the dough, opening the oven door and placing the loaf inside. I’m moving, reaching for the next dough basket, but my spine tingles at the words and Dylan’s soaring voice.
I suppose these are boisterous lyrics from a headstrong young man. There’s a certain amount of ego, an imagined self-grandeur, as he rattles off all these big words without caring, it seems, about meaning or what comes across.
You could say a lot about Dylan, the passage of time, ego, mysticism, genius, and inspiration. But it’s 2022, and I’m making bread in a wood-fired oven, and this kid is making my spine tingle.
It’s magic and not unlike my experience of seeing the deer walk past Mildrith’s shelter and disappear into the darkness. These mystical moments, high dramas that strike out through the stillness leave a lasting imprint on our psyches.
A new outlook for the Happy Monk Baking Company, a shift of focus from oven-to-home bread delivery to the community of the Pender Island Farmers Market [ See Link in Profile ]
Jan 29
A bread-fail last week produced great-tasting Sesame-Miso Frisbees or Umami Chapeaus! What to do with the remnants? Hard-bread, rusks, croutons, or what have you. And the Ravens get their fair share, too … O come to me Huginn and Munnin! Fill your beaks and carry my greetings and blessings to Odin! [ See link in my LinkTree in HappyMonk Profile ]
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Jul 21
Latest Happy Monk Blog: The World is Too Much With Us - In our little Island paradise, how to embrace all the beauty when the world is going to hell in a hand basket? ALSO: Baker`s Choice - Brown-Rice Miso and Sesame Sourdough [ See LinkTree in Profile ]
Jul 17
Latest Happy Monk Blog: "A Bird Came Down the Walk," a brief flirtation with ChatGPT that was awkward but offered an exquisite poem by Emily Dickinson. [See LinkTree in Profile ]
Jul 3
Resurrected a couple of Salish Sourdough loaves forgotten inside Mildrith, the wood-fired oven. They emerged charred and hell-fired, sadly, so I took a knife to them and made them almost new again!
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Jun 9
Strongly recommend installing the Smell-O-Vision™ feature on your device to appreciate the aroma of these Rye-Currant Sourdough loaves, just out of the oven. Wish I could capture it in a jar, or make a scratch ‘n’ sniff postage stamp (like the recent French stamp commemorating the baguette). And this loaf tastes just as lovely as they look!
Jun 1
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Happy Monk Tidings - May 15, 2024 🍞 - BLOG REDUX: "Saving Grace"; BAKER`S CHOICE: Sprouted Purple Barley Sourdough; REGULAR: Seed Feast.
May 15
It’s late at night and chances are there’s a baker near you having fun with bread dough …
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May 5
All spelt, all the time … well, with a few glugs of maple syrup
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Apr 20
New Happy Monk Blog: Spring brings mixed blessings! A sense of loss, along with warmth and a new cast of light, "That Science cannot overtake / But Human Nature Feels." Westeros and Emily Dickinson`s sensitive heart. [ See LinkTree in Profile ]
Apr 3
This little guy is a workhorse, plain and simple. A brute! Thursday, it milled over 27kg of incredible flour for a recipe that needed the freshest flour possible. And its output was beautiful. Wheat, spelt, rye and buckwheat. A larger mill could have handled that in a fraction of the time, but who’s complaining? Some amazing bread was the result, milled and mixed the same day. A Country Miche from an article by Eric Pallant @epallant in the Winter/Spring 2023 issue of Bread Lines.
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Mar 2
Latest Happy Monk Blog - The Living Rock Island – Our Little Corner of South Pender Island 🍞 [See LinkTree in Profile]
Feb 28
O, for a slice of raisin sourdough! that hath been
Warm’d a long age in the deep delvéd oven,
Tasting of Hestia and the ocean green,
Rest and a slow moving song and sunburnt mirth!
O for a loaf full of the warm South
Full of the true, the blushful Hippocrene,
With beaded raisins winking at the crumb,
And cinnamon-stainéd mouth;
That I might eat, and leave the world unseen,
And with thee fade away into the forest dim.
— Apologies to John Keats for my butchery of his “Ode to a Nightingale”
Feb 25
At the outset of the Happy Monk Baking Company, I cherished those early mornings, working alone with Mildrith in the dark before the birds began their glorious morning chorus. The world was silent, unhurried. Mildrith and me, the trees, the solid earth, a passing deer, the baskets of bread dough waiting for the oven.
Going to work in the pre-dawn hours was something bakers did, I thought. They sacrificed sleep and delivered their bread early to appreciative customers. It was a romantic notion on my part, a naïve commitment to the baking trade without fully understanding the consequences, i.e. sleep debt.
It was satisfying to have loaves ready for some customers before noon; it was a triumph! But by the time most of the bread was ready for delivery, bagged and labelled, my eyelids were growing heavy, my mind fuzzy, my body slowing down.
And it wasn’t safe driving up-island.
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Feb 1
Milling a little corn to mix in with some marinated olives before they go into a tapenade infused dough. Big olive flavour … plus a rare shot of Mildrith, the wood-fired oven!
Nov 19
Happy Monk Tidings - November 15, 2023 BAKER`S CHOICE this week: Olive Sourdough Loaf; AND: An Emotional Weather Report [ See LinkTree in Profile ] 🍞
Nov 15
Happy Monk Tidings - November 1, 2023 🍞 - BAKER`S CHOICE: Sourdough Sandwich Loaf; BLOG: Don`t Let That Wonder Lawyer Tell You It`s Not Real Bread! [ See LinkTree in Profile ]
Nov 1
Dylan Thomas, one of my muses, would have been 109 years old this Friday, Oct. 27. One of a small-handful of poets whose words are cherished and summoned often for their music and wisdom. They soothe, they sing, they evoke. I`ll be thinking of him this bread day, under "the mustardseed sun"….. and the "switchback sea"…. as he "celebrates and spurns his driftwood thirty fifth wind turned age."
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Happy Monk Tidings - October 25, 2023 🍞 - BAKER`S CHOICE - Sprouted Emmer Sourdough; BLOG: Happy Birthday, Dylan Thomas! [See LinkTree in Profile ]
Oct 25
Happy Monk Tidings - October 18, 2023 - 🍞: BAKER`s CHOICE: Seedy Spelt and Rye Bread; BLOG: It Starts With Wonder? What`s That?
Oct 18
Happy Monk Tidings - October 11, 2023 BAKER`S CHOICE: Potato Rosemary Bread; BLOG: Swimming with Otters 🍞
Oct 11
Happy Monk Tidings - BLOG: Abundance: Season of Apples; Baker`s Choice: Pender Island Apple Bread with Pender Apples and Twin Island Cider - October 4, 2023 🍞 [ See LinkTree in Profile ]
Oct 4
Happy Monk Tidings - September 27, 2023 🍞 - BAKER`S CHOICE THIS WEEK: Harvest Bread; BLOG: Positively Fourth Avenue - [ See LinkTree in Profile ]
Sep 27
Happy Monk Tidings - September 20, 2023 🍞 - BAKER`S CHOICE: Garlic Levain Bread; BLOG: Harumph! Author Says Leave the Baking to the Professionals! [ See LinkTree in Profile ]
Sep 20
A hefty Country Miche, formula from Breadlines published by Bread Bakers Guild of America. Hefty in size, hefty in flavour. Four flours (Sifted Metchosin Wheat, Rye, Buckwheat, Spelt), a super-active levain and an intense crust colour. I think I’m addicted! It’s kind of finicky, though, and trying to work out a reasonable schedule to produce 40 loaves for Happy Monk customers.
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Sep 14
See more about Bob Dylan in this post from earlier this year.↩
Wow, David! You are an amazing writer. It reminds me of my niece’s experience when she visited us in California many years ago, sleeping in her tent with the screened doorway, and waking up to a “deer stare.” Your misty, mystic mornings sound wonderful! no wonder you are addicted to them. Liz
They’re pretty special, those mornings, yes. But it’s also wonderful to sleep in on Saturday mornings and move slowly through the day! Thanks for your kind words, Liz!
Dylan’s throwaway-lines made sense to us – and became part of the fin de siècle lexicon for multiple generations. The music imbued them with meaning.